*Here's some real for that ass. Vibe with me GS because it's ok to not agree with something and speak your mind but don't feel offended if i speak mine... No matter what know that i give you that realness each penned stanza and line...real talk*



At 5'3
i usually poke out my chest often...
proud and tall
yet today
this 18th day of October...
i feel so small
feel like...
i've been cut down
chopped off
a severed limb, if you will
i will my heart to beat
but instead it stands still
I WANT IT TO BEAT AGAIN! WORD!
How do you let shit go
when you feel like you've been stripped of your soul?
do you comprehend?
can you even understand
what it's like to have someone shun you?
but
since you're in the closet
when they make a derogatory homo joke
you force yourself to laugh too?
knowing that you're that faggot that they speak of
you're that dude that bends over and takes dick
In my case prohood is referred to simply that Dyke bitch
"ITS A FAD"
"THOSE THAT CHOOSE THIS LIFESTYLE"
So i choose to be chastised,
disgraced, and disrespected?
chose to be the cousin the whole family neglected
chose to lie to my son about mommy's special friend
chose to be not simply a poet but the one they refer to as
"them"
Keep "them" away
YOU READ IT RIGHT...that's what they say
lil ol me
the same chick that would break bread with whomever
because above anyone else? Nah i dont think that im better
Im that hood chick
that loves dick...mmmm i love it alot...lol
the reader may be laughing at that like damn
she's a riot!
But sidenote: i eat pussy too...
it's part of pro's balanced diet
Lmaooooooooooo
this shit hella funny to me
because i apparently
more so it is apparent to me
that what i am...
whatever that is...
i am contagious!
so let me break down my life to you in stages
By the time i was 5 i had already realized
that i am the "them" my mommy and daddy so despised
I am the "them" that was always the class joker
the same them was ok as long as what i was...
was never spoke of
by the time i was 11 i had tried to kill myself twice
by the time i was 16 i tried to kill myself thrice
at the age of 15 i was lured on a roof top
then to the bottom floor of my building and raped
by two grown ass men that wanted to make a statement
wanted to prove they could change me
by dicking me down in a basement
I WAS A VIRGIN
You can't even imagine how scary
it is to tell your boyfriend you was robbed of your cherry
i did my best to block out that violation
to only be welcomed two months later by a seed of their impregnation
so alone i layed on a cold underground table
with unsanitary instruments and something that looked like a jumper cable
My insides were scraped
to rid me of the child i conceived through being raped
AND
I VALENTINE LOBAYCHA LOUIS RODRIGUEZ....MUTHAFUCKING CHOSE THIS?
WOW!
I am the same poet that has collab'ed with you on more than one piece
the same bitch that freestyled on more than one beat
the cancer survivor you felt sorry for
the one labeled for my erotica so any given day they whisper
i'm that whore
I'm the one that holds my tongue so many times
because in my mind...
all ive chosen to be...
was a poet
yet i was hated and didnt even know it
i am comfortable in who i am
and cuz of my pics i am too labled a "hoet"
SHAKING MY HEAD
So your God and my God has to be two different entities
cuz my God does not divide who should be loved equally
See who i am isnt new to me
what is new is how i was being perceived
I SWEAR FOR JEEZUS
i thought it was cool to just be me
it took me 27 years to be able to accept my vision
at times i still want to die because being this way
this mu'fucking way bitches...and i fucking said BITCHES
because if all that i am to you is a
"them"
then i can bet all the money and the riches
that you should smile when i deduce you to
"Bitches"
on some real life type shit
anyone please feel free to respond
because this piece would not have been penned if i felt i was wrong
Its not what you say but how you say it
cuz this "THEM" and "DYKE" bitch will forever be about it
i dont need hype men,
no stan or fan
I am my own WO-MAN
i had to break down that word because i just realized
why i am Most Hated in true
Cuz like a man i may fuck your bitch
better than you
you know what they say
a woman knows what a woman needs
So you hate me cuz her head is between my knees
It's ok to not understand something
but like i was taught a lesson yesterday
it is not ok...
to make assumptions
it is not ok to joke with my black ass every day...
then turn around and say
i hate gays!
are you fucking tweaking?
i am the gay!
of whom you are speaking
so it's ok to say?
but i wasnt talking about you
Just cuz we peoples doesnt mean that i should be excluded too
you think it's ok to pay me a compliment and say
*no homo*
that's like talking to a prostitute and saying...
*no hoe*
or
I'm so intelligent in Math ...
*no asian*
or
i like fried chicken....
*no nigger* by a caucasian
Hate comes in all colors, shapes and sizes
^^^^^read that in slow mo with your irises
Hate it or love it i am going to always be me
Hate it or love i will always love she
BI THE WAY.....
There goes some food for your mental consumption

Signed,
Prohood
the "them" that probably eats pussy better than "them"

P.S. if this shit here is just poetry...
then why the fuck does this pain feel real to me?