I see the way you stare at me
Your pitiful glances
My unknown expression
Mocking smiles cast behind my back
The uncontrollable whispers
Provokes longing...
The raucous laughter
Exposing depravity...
Simultaneously changing faces
Day after day
Bewildered by my silence
Making you murderously angry
Attracting the wrong attention
Followed by uninterrupted
REJECTION
Saturating my voice, is a barrier of pain
My sudden dejection remains
UNEXPLAINED
A forcible smile
Unconvincing
So once again...you scrutinize
I laugh
Acidly
Heart thuds
Erratically...
These marks...this blood...this knife
I was born with it
So I embrace its purposes
The beauty of such things
Stab me with sadness
While glistening my soul
With unexpected joy
Quickly picking up the pace
Eagerness growing with every step
As I slowly torture myself to death....


(I'm not a cutter...just went with the concept)