Embezzled from her youth
With the words I love you
It took years for me to find the truth
I wasn't a choice
And neither an option
But a sign to live her life with caution
She was forced until unconscious
Abolished in this world of sins
No longer a virgin
To this man she called her husband
Drugs, money, sex, and lies
Was the game he played to keep himself satisfied
Yet, as long as he never had to look himself in the eye
He felt as thought there was nothing to realize
So why get high and beat the woman of your life
To leave your unborn child
At her peak of demise
Selfishness and greed
Is all that he cared for
Regardless if she bleeds
Or if accidental seed is in a state of jeopardy
He was getting his
And that's all that matter
So she let him do whatever
As long as he kept her pockets fatter
Nails done, fur coats, fly shoes, a house, a car and a boat
Sellin her soul for what she felt meant more
To a man she adored
That treated her like a helpless whore
Trickin and sleepin around
Is what seemed to make it sadder
But never made a difference
In her life of Assault and Batter
Who ever thought it'd lead her to death
On the third year of her babygirl's first breath
Nightmares embedded in my mind stay fresh
Of ashes scattered around from her burning flesh
I never got a chance to tell her to rest
And until this day, it still brings pains to my chest
Hot flashes and cold sweats
In the middle of the night I should have been blessed
Obsessed
With tears of rain in my eyes
and possessed
With fears of pain I denied
The new cycle has begun
As now it's my turn to lay unconscious under this scoring sun
Since there's no place to hide, and not a God-damn place to run
From this fucked up world provided by my Grandfather's Son
And to wonder how to become
A product of rape
Under the gun