*LONG* BUT I'M FEELIN' SOME TYPE OF WAY 2NITE...VIBE WIT ME....


Just when I think my pen can never leak another word about U from the brim of the ink tip...
I look in the eyes of our daughter...your twin...and I feel the tears start 2 slip.
She'll be One is September...do U even remember?
Probably not...Shit U got 6 kids and 4 an ignorant mind that's 2 many dates 2 remember.

But I bet u remembered 2 give the next bitch back shots...
Bet u remembered 2 roll ur next blunt and how 2 cook the crack in the pot.
See I got pyrex vision too...meaninig I see straight thru 2 the bitch inside U...
She got 4 teeth now and eats her food on her own...
Soon enough she gon question why Daddy left her & Mommy in this world alone.

U begged me not to terminate the pregnancy when I was already strugglin' with 3 other kids...
Cryin' that day in the rain sayin "my shorty deserves a chance to live"
But see... I would never play executioner...I was prepared to let this seed bloom.
The contractions came early and I was alone in that delivery room...

I cried as I pushed and gave birth to this new life...
Not because it was physically painful, but because I bought in to all ur hype.
U said u wanted 2 be a changed man, get a job with a 401 k plan...
But how can U do right by us when U still rock that wedding band on ya left hand?

I helped U fill out those divorce papers...it was all one big front...
4 years of waiting...why couldn't u just tell me it was her that u want?
U gave her ur last name 2 make up for our seeds that bared the same.
Now she up to 2 kids...u shootin ya sperm like this shit is a game.

Guess u tryin' 2 prove that the mistress didn't upstage...that the unison is still joint...
Muthafucka I birthed my kids cuz I love them...not cuz I was tryin' 2 prove a point.
And our Lil Mama is so beautiful, I'm sure u wouldn't remeber cuz u only seen her thrice.
We strugglin' just 2 survive...I WONDER HOW THE FUCK U SLEEP PEACEFULLY AT NIGHT?!?!?

U takin' me out of my element, speakin this redundant shit mixed with incredible relevance...
Another fatherless child and she don't even qualify 4 free medical benefits.
But U get 2 sit on ya ass thinkin u God's gift 2 a bitch...
I grind hard on the daily while tryin 2 repair this heart that has a glitch...

See...I don't miss u in any way, shape, or form...but the kids are starting 2 wonder where Daddy went.
I show them a picture of U and they smile so big u would think that ur ass was heaven sent.
I'm runnin outta lies 2 tell them Sean King, shit the phone don't even ring.
I'm not even askin' u 4 money, just please show them that in ur heart they mean SOMETHING!!!

*****TEARS*****

The baby started saying "DADA" this week and I can barely take it any more...
Never put 2 much on ur shoulders 2 bare but sometimes I have 2 ask "WHY ME LORD?"
Soon the phone gonna be blowin up with hot in the pants boys and slew of new friends...
But I don't think Im prepared 4 the torrential downfall of tears when she asks...

"Mommy why is it that when the phone rings...Daddy is never on the other end?"