Everyday when i open my eyes.
Two things come to mind you and the times we shared.
Those simple things you did showed me how much you cared.
Not one to dwell in the past but so stuck in it its hard to move fast.
Cant get ahead because my mind tends to think with my heart.
Not much thinking going on when my heart's in park.
"Feelings" stuck in reverse.
Words and actions stuck in drive.
Causing me to take actions without the supervision of a responsible logical thought or reason.
Saying hurtful things without looking into the meaning.
Only venting because my soul is hurting.
Revealing what i felt for months.
A hurting heart speaks the truth of one.
The type of pain that makes me pray.
Praying hands speaking the words "Help Me"
Slowly giving up because at night i can't sleep.
I have no peace.
I've reach my peak.
These are my thoughts of you.
Memories of the past killing me.
But what can i say i hold onto them like a song playing endlessly.
Now realizing my heart needs medical attention.
I feel like im stuck in love's detention.
All because i failed to mention. that one day i would have these "2nd to none feelings"
Couldn't have you to myself.
So i removed myself.
All the while hurting like hell.
Pain welcome by self..

{Last poem i write about this situation im done with it.. i cant change so why continue to play myself..}