Blog Entry
Its hard caring about people and sometimes i just wanna give up and stop caring, stop loving, and just move one with my life. But i know this will never happen because my love for people never fades. No matter how much i try to let go, i never seem to be successful. Yesterday my music was broken and no longer would play its sweet love song. No matter how hard i tried to fix it, it continued to sing its sad song and painful message of hurt and confusion. With soft words, my music began to cry its song, in turn tearing my heart apart. I wanted it to stop. I wanted it to be over. I wanted more than anything to be able to erase the pain and bring back the happiness, but, I couldn't. There was nothing i could do. Nothing. Except sit and listen to the sad song and wipe the tears from my eyes. I felt hopeless. The only thing that could release my music was the key that unlocked the box the held my music in its misery. But the key was being selfish. It wants my music to suffer...not realizing my music needs the key...to be free...to be happy. The key has the power to help my music return back to the happy love song...but it doesn't. It continues to let my music linger alone in the darkness...left alone in the pain. I try to be a shelter...and catch the fallen gloomy music notes and they play their song but my hands fill quickly...they become slippery and i lose it...while my own tears fall from my eyes.