I stare at you, you look back at me you question what I do and I mumble its all for you now I ask myself if its worth it do you love me to do I even matter to you do you see me am I there am I just a blur in time am I to be let down like this all my life this is the last time I try I have given up looking for love I have been broken to much my heart fells like its not there any more come with me save one peace don't let me fall now I am done I am gone I am never more you once knew me but I am gone from history my very self has disappeared because I have already gave up my sole never the less I try my best to keep going in this world the time I spent has no consent and from this day forth I am lost my anger is so clear but I don’t understand every thing you say was a blur I am glad you are dead but I cant help feel the I still love you I leave black roses to keep your sole at ease but all awhile I know that u are still mad at me for what I did the hole in my heart keeps getting bigger now and then when your memory still hunts me I keep a loaded gun by my side cocked and ready to fire I never sleep not until your back by my side I guess this means I will die cold tried and alone