At 16, I've learned that people around you effect your life, just as much as you effect theirs.
Without thinking, we learn to judge without looking, love without thinking, and denounce without reasoning.
I believe that a lot of us are afraid of diversity.
Being different is considered UN-cool but when reality is fitting in can make you stupid.
I'm learning that if I stand on the opposite side no will join me only judge me.
I'm moving towards standing alone because then I know no one's opinion will effect my judgment.
This is life and in life i believe you make mistakes not only to teach you.
But to make you understand just what life can do to you.
You hit the ground sometimes u break and sometimes u don't.
You cry and sometimes you won't.
The options are there.
I'm changing and within that change I see Sierra.
I see the things I've lost, what I've gained, the things God gave me and what he took back from me.
I see the incident when i was 10 that made me hate the men of the world.
I saw the time when i was 15, a man died who i loved and i knew he loved me.
If this is what life has to offer me.
I want death.
I'm not a quitter but nothing can convince me that this is all left out here.
Hurt, anger, and pain.
I want it gone.
I want to be the old me the HAPPY me.
I want the people in my life to stop trying to change me and let me be Sierra.
Just let me be.
Sick of having to wake-up and having these bad memories re-play in my head.
I want to let go of everything that hurt me.
But how can i?
When everything that hurt me, made me.