DEBOMILLIONZ:

Stuck puzzled lost and confused
Now I know what I have to lose
The only thing important to me
My life something any fool could see
I cried the same as she did and I felt so alone
I wanted to grab my gun but I grabbed my phone
I sat on the floor I didn't what to do
So beautifulsoul I'm reaching out to you
You have been with me through all my shit
From when I cried beside you and had my fit
Don't laugh at what I'm about tell about
Remember that girl we seen when went out
Yes that gurl I fucked her
and I busted the rubber
But the reason I'm sitting her crying
Because I think I'm dying
She told me she was positive with HIV
And all I can think of doing is killing me
I don't want to live knowing that I will soon die
I don't want to live with this fucking shit inside
I want take this gun and just blow myself away
Talk to me what you have nothing to say
Where is god at I called but he didn't answer
Where is he why don't he just answer
They said pray I did and I don't know what else to do
I'm crying here I need some help and a little guidance from you
If you can't help then tell me where I should go soon
Because I'm at the point of blowing my head across this room

  beautifulsoul:

Damn baby boy what the fuck did you say
You fucked that trick
And now you got hell to pay
hold up I'm coming over to help you pray
Stop crying and listen to what I got to say
First are you sure?
Did you find out today?
Give me your hand
I promise you i'll be here to stay
Stay right by your side
Till your dying day
but come on let's take that trip
to see if it's true
lets hear what ther doctors have to say

  DEBOMILLIONZ:

Fuck the doctors and forget prayer
no time for that shit when death is near
no i'm not sure and but one thing i know for certian
that she had it and is gonna one more dead person
i can't dry my tears
when i shortend my years
i have no fam no love one's no kids
tell me what reason do i have to live
just leave me alone your no help at all
why the fuck did i give you a call
leave me !!!just leave me here
your a pretender too. you don't really care
i fucked up yeah i know
please just go
i'm sorry the next time you hear about me i'll be dead
don't ask me to take this gun down from my head
don't worry it will be over shortly
when i count to three
i'm sorry if i disappointed you
goodbye this is it 1,2....

  beautifulsoul:

damn he's finally dead
see I knew the girl
I told her to lie
this nigga never knew how much I really loved him inside
I couldn't take it anymore
he's always giving it to someone else all night
I knew he wouldn't go to the doctors
and I know he's always taking the easy way out
like I said I'll be by his side till his dying day
and yes he was right I was a pretender
but I really did care
because now I'm counting down and saying goodbye
1, 2, ......