I stood frozen at the window,
darling, I came to see.
I heard whispers that you died for me.
I saw the shiney object, still in your hand.
I couldn't piece myself together enough to understand.
I tried to scream out to you, baby it was too late.
why did you do this? you can't determine fate.
I stood there frozen in the window,
silently looking in, hood hanging low,
you said you couldn't live with out me, but I truly didn't know.
I thought they were the same empty words I heard so many times before,
I challenged your commitment, wanted you to show me more.
this is what I pushed you too? a cold corpse with a shot in the temple?
my heart was always yours, I never left you.
you gave it unconditionally, but your efforts seemed in vain,
I pushed you to this ending, inciting your pain.
I contemplated laying by you and doing the same,
conviction took over me, courage never came.
your life is living in me, a life we both conceived,
reincarnate in my womb,
forever part of me.
lest you don't find it suitable, or no longer fitting,
perhaps in death, your soul is unforgiving.
in this world with out you, I'd die a thousand deaths,
I'd sacrifice myself, to give you one last breath.
I watched the coroner cover you and I released a white dove,
I silently cried out to you, my darling died for love.