I've grown...


accustomed to your face
learning every detail,
every line
that surrounds your dark eyes
to your smile
and how...

your left dimple shows
when you smirk...
even when you're being a jerk
I melt...

your laugh,
the way you tease me
and even when your'e angry
I just wanna hold you
squeeze you
and thank you
for putting up with me
because I know baby,
I know...


I've grown...


accustomed to having you
wait for me
wait on me after work
ready to rub my feet
massage my headaches away
even though you been on your grind
all day-
you welcome me home with strong
loving arms
ask me how my day was
sitting there
while you just watch me


I smell you in the air...


your musculine scent
that teases my nostrils
and reminds me of home...
and even though we fight
we've always laughed it off
talked it away
but today felt different
and I woke up knowing
it was going to be different...


I've grown...


accustomed to loving you
more than I have any other
even though I didn't at first...
I put you second to my memories
but you held on,
you believed in our love
and I let you down in my heart
not giving myself completely,
unselfishly...
It may not have been in body
but I was unfaithful...
in my thoughts...
and even though you saw the signs
you wrapped your arms around me
and claimed me for your own
when you asked me
to be your wife


I cried...


cried so deep inside
thinking it was just a dream,
that no one could love me enough
to want to look after me
and I gave my heart...
completely without a doubt that day...
and when I asked you
why you loved me
you just said...


"there shouldn't be a reason
to love someone unconditionally
a reason to stay,
a reason to leave"-
you just do


stay.with.me


even though I try to drive you away
scared you might leave me anyway...


*deep sigh*


I've grown...


accustomed to your face
accustomed to your voice
accustomed to your embrace
when I get home


...yet today
you weren't there
and not hearing you ask me
"what's to eat"
filled me with everything
empty in this world
and I will never
grow accustomed to that silence...


I love you baby
more than words could ever say...