I can't move forward in life
Without first saying these carefully few chosen words to you mother

Finally through years of agonizing mental rehabilitation
Learning compassion
Calming the furious rage
Discovering how to care for myself
Erasing inner wounds and hated doubts
Realizing that I'm not a bastard or cursed creation from damnation

Rather yet....
I am a blessing to those who do cherish and love me

I now can utter these much needed overdue words

I forgive you

Though this won't change the way you feel towards me
I am able to close this chapter to one horrible horror story
And embark on new beginnings

I was hoping to know you
For that obvious fact of being your abandoned son
But I know that things are meant to be this way beyond understandable reasons

I'm hurting
Even still......
I shall pray for you

May the Father have mercy upon your dispirited hollow soul
Goodbye mother.......................