I woke up to thoughts of you
This morning-
**Erased then backspaced**
Trying to forget
Certain moments where
I needed you..
Mental images of
Conceptualized relationships
Flaunted and permeated
--My heart--
I challenged my body to
~~Forgive and forget~~
Captivity caused by memories of
Passion's madness,
Flaunting turned into falling..
Forgiveness was molded into
Senseless wishing--
While needs grew stronger amongst
Two dynamic souls..
We sold our solutions to keep
Love guessing.
Chances gambled on
Unsure bets
Created high tides in the
Ocean of emotions we felt.
I wanted to close the chapter and
Hide the book
{{On the tallest shelf}}
Far enough away so
I could begin to
Find myself again..
But you pulled when I pushed..
Forcing me to embrace
What I obviously needed..
You seeded unconditionality
Inside my heart--
The same heart I vowed would never
Beat this hard
For another man..
I watched you gaze and plot as I played
'Catch me if you can'.
But
I wasn't fast enough.
You
caught
me...

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